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09 October 2010.....
is really my FUCKING day.
Soo pissed off my Boifey. I were at Clarke Quay
where Lynn's is working which is at the
Temporary Tattoo push cart which Boifey himself
know where it is because he ever came once.
After helping Lynn fer quite some time from 6pm-1.30am,
my intention is to meet Boifey up coz i miss him
& i need him at that point of time coz i
were vomiting & my stomach hurts.
As in it cramp badly because im having my
period. But when i text him & tell about the meet up,
he like giving me lots of reasons & reply
my message so short.



..
After quarrellin in the message,
then he agree to meet up.
From Clarke Quay i cabbed down to Choa Chu Kang
& when i've reached there, Boifey & me went to Pondok
which is near Azrin house. At Pondok there is Nas, Haneez, Fatiha,
El Frow, Yan, Renie, Aceh, Azrin, Ridwan (Babat), Azhar
& 2 more guys that i don't know whats their name is.
Went we (Boifey & Me) came, Nas said this to Boifey, ''Bal, ko punye baron''.
Kalau Nas da cakap tuu macam nampak sangat nie semue
da plan siol. Abeh ko punye nak bagi aku alasan
seperti ko penat, besok keje pagi & etc semue macam bullshit.
Kalau memang ko da plan dengan dorang untuk minom
malam tuu then just bilang aku terus terang uhh, tak
payah nak tipu2 nak peng2 dengan aku pe.



..
that night we drink. They drink beer but not fer me.
I went to the shop & bought myself a bottle
of liquor. Not much choice have so i bought Glenn Vodka.
The alcohol percentage is only 40%. Bought a small
packet of ice. Sprite as the air balas. After i've bought that,
we drink together. They drink but with air balas. I drink
it neat coz im soo stressed up & pissed off. After the Vodka
had finished, they were tipsy high but im not at
all, FUCK...!! Boifey terus da slack one corner pasal ngantok.
Part aku turun jer selalu ngantok tapi kalau part
aku tak ade, lepak sampai pukul berape pon tak ngantok.
Macam sial.



..
Boifey & Me make a move from the Pondok at
4.10am. Went to Boifey house first because he wants
to berak. He ask me to wait fer him kat dalam
bilik kakak ipar dier. That night kakak ipar
dier tak tido rumah dier. So i waited fer him in there.
I were dreaming all alone, thinking why must he
lied to me. Suddenly i didn't realise that he's done
& dier masuk bilik terus tutup pintu & lock it.
I asked him why he lock coz kalau later his Mum tau
macam maner then he said to me tak ape. I were sitting
on the bed at that point of time. He then throw himself on the
bed & baring. I ignore it, then a few seconds later, he hugged
me & pulled me down to baring beside him. After that,
he turned me to baring on him. Giler punye orang.



..
after all that nonsense, we went to 7-eleven
to buy some food but then tak jadi coz tak
banyak pilihan. So we sat somewhere outside.
We talked about us. Then things came up to become
a conflicts. A huge conflicts. Which i already cannot
tahan so i just walked away macam gitu jer.
He manage to get my hands & asked to sit down
but i refuse so he gripped my hand hardly & i ask him to
let me go but he refuse. In fact dier makin genggam
kuat2 till i just memberontak sampai my hand is
free from his grip. Its pain, really, but i tahan.
After da free, i walked off untuk nak tahan cab & balik
but unfortunantly, tak ade cab langsung at that moment
& he chase me. I keep on walking till i see a cab but there is
still no sight of it. Until im already tired & stop. That's
where he came to me & apologise. His eyes is filled with tears
but he controlling it. He don't wanna drop those tears.



..
he seek me to give him one more
chance but i ask him a chance fer what.
A chance to hurts me more isit..?? Then he replied me
no. When da nampak cab, i tahan then off back home. He
is soo sad. When im in the cab, he text me but i didn't reply.
Only on Monday (11 October 2010) morning that i start
to message him, reply his message & answered his called.
Im sorry to say that love fer him is growing apart now
& sooner or later i will have to tell him this.




*signing off*
(''v'') aida_petite (''v'')