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27 August 2010.....
is my second month Anniversary with Iqbal.
Boifey wished me first this time round as i really
forget that today is our Anniversary. Sorry.
Last month Boifey yang tak ingat tapi
this month aku pulak yang tak ingat. Sajak lah tuu kan
kiter dua nie. I really didn't remember that today
was my big day as im soo stressed up this
lately. Many things happened at one shot & i can't handle
it. I can't help it siaa. Im soo sensitive & emotional
this lately fer all that happened. I've mixed all those
feelings up & create a messed out of everything. I hope that
my Boifey could forgive me fer all the harsh words
that i've said to him. & sorry to Roza too. Im not mad at the
both of you, I LOVE THE BOTH OF YOU VERY MUCH but as i
said, i can't control my emotion. Im still so shocked that
i fall sicked. Have not been catching up with my sleep,
skipping meals & stressed over everything.



..
On the phone with Boifey & we end
up quarrelling. Its all started from me. Fer being
soo sensitive & too emotional. Throwing my anger to
Boifey, using harsh words towards him. How
crushed i am to be in this way/situation. But still
he understands me & didn't say much. Because he knew that
im still in shocked condition & that im still crushed.
He feels me. He understand that i am this way because
i've just lost a good friend AGAIN..!! He knows that if im in this
condition, i will be soo hot/short tempered &
easily get irritated over something.
He's trying his very best to cheer me up & i can see
that he put alot of effort to support me
emotionally & physically. Yesterday, after attending to the
funeral, he meet me up under my void deck at late
hours just to comfort me & calm me down.
He is there fer me with an listening ear & open
arms. He let me cry on his shoulder, in his arms.
Padahal tuu dier belum tido dari semalam & were very shagg
but still he spare a time fer me & come down to
my place. From his house (Choa Chu Kang)
to my place (Sengkang). How far is that..???
Just imagine people. He sacrifice alot fer me. After that,
we (Boifey & Me) went to Rivervale Plaza to meet up with
Alynn, Syah, Eddie, Imran, Ciner & Fad. We slacked
at MacDonald, have our meals & chit chatted.
Everyone of us were trying to cover our
sadness by making a STUPID/SILLY JOKES
& laughed our ass off.



..
I can't be in this way forever coz im hurting all
my love ones & that makes me feel soo sad & guilty.
I must adapt quickly. I just need some time to accept the facts
& get over everything. Although i knew that i will miss him.
Will keep him in my heart & memories.



..
28 August 2010 (Saturday)
is the day that i gonna spent my day with Boifey.
We've planned.

1st - Meet him at Choa Chu Kang. He will be fetching me from
the Interchange.

2nd - Visit my Mum's cemetry.

3rd - Go to his house because he wanna change clothes before
going to Geylang. (P/s : He's the one that requested me
to come to his house. Purpose is that he wanna change clothes
& he wants to meet me up with his family)

4th - Going to Simpang Bedok to break fast there
with his group of friends.

Lastly - Going to Geylang to search fer our couple pair
of clothes fer Hari Raya & to grab DengDeng.



..
was so happy when Sha-Sha told me something earlier.
She said that Mon wants to meet me & her up
one day because he MISSED us. Sweet knn..???
Mon planned to meet up on Tuesday fer movie &
he asked me to bring my Boifey along as dier memang
dari that time da penah cakap gitu with me.
He ever said to me that he wants me to
introduce Boifey to him. Will be watching Expendables
movies on this coming Tuesday (31 August 2010).
Im looking forward fer it..!!Weeeee.



*signing off*
(''v'') aida_petite (''v'')