..
im so confused with my life right now..
i felt so lonely
& i need someone.. I mean, a partner.
Fer me to count on.
but at the same time, im happy with my single life.
coz i have all my friends with me
my TRULY friends....
hmmm......


..
life is really not easy man.
I just feel like giving up on everything
but if its not bacause of Roza & Nina advice
i don't think im still standing.
Special thanks to them.
they really do support me, cheer me & brought me up
when i fall & when im superr down.
I love them very muchh.
can't bare losing them....


..
ouh God,
till when you wanna test me...???
i had enough of everything. I can't stand any longer.
Please, let me taste a lil of happiness
i just need that....
stop hurting all my loved ones please..
Coz it really hurts me alot to see them suffering
please protect them from all the bad2 things..
i want to see them happy, smile, laugh & everything.


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People i loved is :

1) Late Mum
2) (''v'') Denny Zarwandi (''v'')
3) Rozaliah
4 ) Nina
5 ) Melor
6 ) Rozelini


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tk lamer lagi im going to start werk
at Mango.
Together with Roza & Nina.
How nice & fun is that to werk together
with your BESTIE...??
very niceeee :DD
Nina & me need to go to Shaw on the 09 June 2010
to register our name there.


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once SALES start,
i will work smart...
I wun disappoint Roza who already recommended me.
i hope with this werk, it will make me very busy
so that i wun tink muchh about Denny.
Coz if i keep thinking of him,
i swear that i can be mad. coz of non stop
crying & searching.
plus no appetite to eat & stuffs.
Haiyoooo.


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Love quote :

Fer every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it.
Fer every truth there is an eye somewhere to hear it.
Fer every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it.


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i've shuts the doors to my heart so that there
will be NO guys that can enter my world.
As NO ONE can replace Denny positions in my heart.
IRREPLACEABLE...!!!
somehow now i ONLY fall fer him.
& i guess my heart started to like INDONESIAN guys.
Coz im totally sicked & enough of SINGAPORE guys.
Denny
i want you so badly..
Oooh God,
will you please make this become reality one day...??
i believe in you.
& i believe that miracles do happen.
Please make it happen & bless us....


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tonight, i will have to force myself to sleep early.
As tomorrow, Roza & me will be meeting.
to watch movie. But before that, i wanted to
go to Borders to buy some books.
Hopefully daddy would give me the money.
:DD


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Denny,
I LOVE YOU, ENDLESSLY..!!!!
i love you anyway..heres my promise made tonight
you can count ''on'' me fer life....
Nothing you do can change my mind.
no matter how you try to ignore me, shoooing me or whatever
still, it wun works on me.
Thats when i love you. I love you no matter what.
even if you're blind.
when you turn to hide your eyes,
I love you a little more each time.
i love you more than you'll know.
My world needs you.....