on the 8 April, 3.42pm.
my really unlucky day.
got a msg from Fad saying that he's attached now.
it's so heartbreaking...
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i'm so heartbroken & feeling very down now.
i just couldn't believe that this would happen to me.
as this is not what i want it to be.
i still can't accept this news.
i really need time to adapt to a new environment
whereby knowing that he's with someone now
& i must respect that.
.
guess i need time to relax & compose myself.
for we all know that no words can ever heal the pain.
it's hard for me to explain how i'm feeling now.
i just couldn't do or say much coz things already happen.
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Fad, i did predict this earlier but i think a positive
thought to melt away a negative one.
what i have predict, it really came true.
the only words that i can say for now is, Congrats.
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sometimes when i say,
"nah, it's okay or nah, it's fine",
i DON'T really mean it.
it means something's wrong with me.
.
i want you to understand it but you don't get me.
& i don't really know how to tell you.
as you know that girls won't tell directly that they liked you.
they will always tell indirectly &shows their concern to you
but still you didn't notice that in me.
.
last year during my bday,
i really expect you to be there for me.
but where the hell are you?
that is during the time when i need you to celebrate with me.
JUST FOR THAT ONE FREAKING DAY.
my bday is suppose to be my happy day.
but you turned it away.
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you make me feel very down & hurt.
only for those who is there knows what happen.
10 days after my bday, you apologies to me & so on.
but you DIDN'T wish me at all!
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it really hurt me a lot!
why are you acting this way?
thanks for the hurt, anws.
goshhhh...
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you have everything that i wanted in a guy, fyi.
you tc & be happy with her.
i will always rmbr you, FRIENDS forever.
i missed you terribly, Ilysm. :'(